"I'm Scared," written November 21, 2001

[Girl sitting down on floor, her head towards the ceiling]

To that angel up there? I know this probably doesn't seem very important to you. But it is. I'm scared.

[Looks down]

I don't know where anything stands in my life. He's got one foot in my life and I'm closing the door.

[Gets up]

He just won't give up. I'm starting to run out of reasons to say no. Im scared. It can't be true. It just can't be. I'm scared. He knows it. I really want to believe what I feel. I don't believe in true love. Please tell me this isn't what I feel. Why do I have to let him in? It all seems so right. Like it's out of some fairytale.. but fairytales are grim.

[Starts pacing]

I need to run. Run oh run. I wish I could run. I'm scared. What do I feel when we talk?

[Stops center stage] It was just supposed to be a couple of dates. I couldn't have gone and lost my heart. It can't be real. I've fooled myself so many times before. What do I feel? But I feel it when we're together. I know he feels it too. A little part of me wants it to be together forever. Please don't tell me he?s the one. It just can't be. I'm too young. We're not ready for love.

[Pauses and sighs]

But it always seems that he's right there for me. When my heart was broken, he was the one that helped me through. I'm so scared. He wants to hear it. I want to say it. But I'm scared. I'm scared to love? Scared to lose

[Sits down]

Am I just risking it all? Should I say how I feel?

[Looks up]

I wish you could help. I'm scared.