"Everything but Nothing," written in December 2000

He said I was special
That I was the world
I thought he was different
What did I know?
I thought it was love
Until I was shown it was lust
Faults Faults Faults
Give me time to decide.
Wrong
You're a liar.
I'm not,
I repeat, not your
Whore.
No, you will not force me
to do that if I don't feel like it.
No you will not lie to me
or about me.
Spreading the gossip that you fingered me
Yeah right.
As if.
Whatever
I didn't like you that much.
Kinda obvious
I liked him the whole time.
Big deal.
You said you'd always love me
That would never change.
Words words words
Lasted what- two weeks
Then you screwed me over
My best friend
Think you're Mr. Bigshot?
Trying to be a pimp?
Sorry honey this is gonna hurt
You'll have to get a lot better looking
Try kissing without drooling too.
Spit isn't always that pleasant
Dog
You are scum.
Nothing to me.
Nothing to her.
So why bother?
You'll always be scum
Nothing more than trailer trash.
Oh, by the way
I never loves you
Remember how you got so jealous over Nate?
You had a good reason.
Dontcha wanna know what happened?
Haha.
You're nothing.
You don't exist.
Scum
Dog
Trailer park trash
Not even dust
Nothing.
You don't exist.
And I don't care.


*prays* Please don't read this Nate. Don't want you getting upset. Yeah right, you read something I wrote. You? Pay attention to me? I must be joking. Oh wait, I shouldn't joke. you might be sick. Eeeeeeee! Oh sorry, bitter bitter bitter. Hmm... someone get me a leash.